Manassas again. This time the road is the one Shari lived on. Can’t think of the name of that neighborhood or the road right now. A woman is walking up Kahn’s Road toward the neighborhood. But Kahn’s is different. It’s all “civilized” and built up with houses and sidewalks. I ask the woman where she’s going and she tells me she’s going to meet her child coming home from school. I’m thinking that maybe there’s a school now at the end of the road where the horse stables used to be. She invites me to join her sometime and i think i will. Now it’s another day and the lady is again walking towards the neighborhood road to meet her child. I’m with another person. A guy. Scott? And as we approach the woman from the other directions (from Trails End) i’m expecting her to greet us but she walks right by without acknowledging she’s met me. I’m confused but figure it’s because i’m not alone. My companion and i decide to walk up the neighborhood road to see parents meet their children anyways. There’s a man with jogging with a dog heading down the road towards the cul-de-sac. The dog has black curly hair. Might be a standard poodle or some kind of water dog. There are a few children walking up the sidewalk towards us on the other side of the road from the jogger and i try to guess which child is the woman’s.
Now i’m in another neighborhood, still in Manassas. Is it the neighborhood across the street from where Shari lived? Or maybe it’s an extension of what used to be Trails End. It’s where the Mennella’s live now i guess and Linda and her mom are standing out in the yard with other neighbors that i don’t know. Where BarbaraK lived? Barbara married JayMennella so maybe that’s the connection. Anyways, we’re standing around a decent sized pond that doesn’t have much water in it. We’re waiting for something. Fireworks? It’s nearing twilight and i see that all the houses have strange downspouts. Linda’s house has life-sized alligator shaped downspouts. I can see another house has caimans, another house has crocodiles. All of them are startling and very real looking. I mention to Linda and her mom that those downspouts would probably prevent burglars because they look so real.
Now i’m in a grocery store in a strip shopping center i’ve been to before in dreams. I need to buy ?something. Can’t remember. The store is large but there aren’t too many people shopping and the shelves are mostly bare. I go into a section (looks like one of the auction houses in World of Warcraft kind of) and i’m waiting for my turn to place my order. As i’m waiting, looking at the other people, i notice smoke coming from a piece of machinery behind a chain-linked fence. As i watch i see that other smoke is coming from other objects behind the fence. I can see glowing orange of flame. Other people are beginning to notice the smoke but they’re not doing anything. They’re just standing in line like nothing is happening. I yell “FIRE” and pull a lever to sound the fire alarm. A fire truck full of fire men arrives nearly immediately and begins to empty the store of people. I got outside and can see that the entire base of the building is in flames.
Now i’m in another store and i’m getting ready to go on a trip. Angie is there. And a young, fat, black teenage boy. A song is playing on a portable CD player and i can tell that the teenager likes it. I tell him that i have the CD and offer to let him burn a copy if he wants. He does so i drive to my house to get the disc but i can’t find it. I return to the store and tell him i couldn’t find it and feel bad about it. I leave and i’m in a large yellow construction vehicle riding on roads under construction. The roads are red clay but seem finished otherwise. Even the overpasses are red clay. I feel like i’m in an episode of the Gumby Show and nothing is quite what it seems.
I remember something i'd forgotten about. At the end of Trails End past the Harlow’s house there was a wild area with a pond. Angie and i used to go there to smoke cigarettes and dream. It was very quiet and nobody else ever came there that i know of. It wouldn’t surprise me it that was all built up now and an extension of the neighborhood. There was also the cow pond on the opposite side of Kahn’s from Trails End where we used to sunbathe on the dock. I’m not sure what these Manassas fragments are trying to get me to remember. Something i need to revisit and think through with new eyes? I can’t quite get the message but the visuals and feelings rising out of my memory closet are mostly neutral.
I just had an insight. Manassas was a crossroads for me. Maybe the dreams are offering alternatives to the paths i chose. That would maybe mean i need to go back and look at my foundation of beliefs and see if they are still valid? No. That doesn't feel right. Maybe i need to look at how i relate to other people? Choices? Hmm. I don't know. But that is where my life changed that caused me to enter a path that led to the road that got me to where i am now. Life is a maze of decisions. Right/left. Yes/no. Wait/move on. Black/white. Night/day. Anything that can be answered by a Ouija board or Magic-8-Ball. That's funny. Who the hell is programming this strange game?
Just remembered another dream from last night. It seems like it takes place where we used to camp at Thornburg VA. Snoball is in the dream! I don’t recall ever having a dream with him in it before. He’s nice and plump and healthy looking except for on his left side is a kind of blue plastic netting. I ask mom if the netting can be removed ever because it’s so visible against his beautiful white fur. She says he can’t have it removed ever. I ask her why he got it and she said that Brad Pitt accidentally shot him with a hand gun.
Brother Snoball! He was never as plump as he looked in the dream. He was large and lean. DAMN! It was great to see him again!
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